Most of the time, I feel pangs of jealousy when I see a model, and at the same time think that models are unnaturally beautiful / strange looking aliens that we should not really strive to be… but this is another story. Still, however, I will not lie – I feel pride when I see an Asian model in a magazine or on a runway, especially one with a monolid (or, non double-eyelids). I read a blog post by a fellow Asian beauty blogger, and was discouraged to see that she was unhappy with her eyes, which is unfortunately how a majority of Asian women feel towards their eyelids. This makes me so upset and frustrated, because to think an eyelid wrinkle could have so much power on someone’s confidence about her appearance is unbelievable…a beauty culture that devalues a beautiful and racialized facial feature is one that needs to be challenged. I’m glad that this model is featured in many editorials and advertisements, staring straight at me with her beautiful mono-lidded eyes.
I know, I know, these blog posts have been a little heavy but I’m not that serious all the time. I do have frivolous interests and hobbies, and my nail game is one of them. I like my hands and get them to look super-presentable once in a while. This time, I’ve painted my nails a deep, dark red, one of my favorite nail colors to wear ever and one that I patiently reserve to wear only in the fall and winter. You won’t catch me wearing this when it’s hot and sunny all the time- it feels really awkward to me, like wearing boots on the beach.
For most people in the northern hemisphere, it’s still summer and you can get away with crop tops and shorts and sandals. But here in San Francisco, it’s foggy and overcast and windy always, it really might as well be autumn all the time. I’m using my manicure to declare the start of fall, damn it.
As far as the look goes, I am pretty proud of my paint job – looks like I got it done at the shop, no? Well, there are several reasons I’m a fan of this shade. I think it is generally flattering, depending on the season, but it is especially pretty on fair to light complexions, because the color provides such a stark contrast. As a result, it draws your eyes to hand gestures and movements, and even the most mundane tasks, like typing, swiping a credit card, pushing buttons on a phone, appear graceful and sophisticated.I prefer this color on short nails because it’s already such a power statement- don’t f*ck with me, I’m a grown-ass woman- that a long nail would be an overkill. A short nail is clean, neat and low-maintenance, which balances a color that is so attention-worthy and bold.
I went to Monterey with my boyfriend to celebrate my big 22- this view was the best birthday present I could ask for. I felt and still feel very thankful when I think about this day because it gives me clarity and calmness. Sometimes I think my world is spinning too fast and things are falling out of place. It’s like when I’m trying to settle into one of those annoying, one-legged yoga poses that requires you to balance but all you do is shake and topple over and look foolish. It was important for me to realize that the balance comes from finding a point to focus and place my mental anchor so that I can be graceful again. This view, the vastness of this beautiful, blue ocean, and the fresh air gives me this.